Thread:Kanapkuba/@comment-35360394-20191228025025

My breaks from the wiki the last few months have been when I've wanted myself the least distracted. It feels like quite an important lesson to suddenly learn what my teachers misunderstood about my disability. But it's me busy experiencing two subjects at a time. On one side learning how females might treat each other in public while speaking of the males they enjoy the most or while they also do stuff such as mock the shorter males. During my lessons of romance I'm having to get used to the agression some people show................ On the other side I'm learning I'm not the bad student some of my impatient teachers guessed, it's just how often people misunderstood my confusions and how much that slowed down social skill progress. I'm starting to see when my teachers expected too much of me while I didn't know what I had to change to do better.

Plus I'm also having to give Tyrel some time to get used to me enough to divide my Autism from my personality and behavior. He's taking this situation easier than my teachers did. Tyrel suits me several ways, so even other people are having to get used to seeing reaction they're not used to me showing. But Tyrel is also similar enough to help me see my paths of solution or achievement without confusion of the consequences, which  wasn't my result with any other fellow in public buildings.

I ignored agressive behavior of other people while I went to school. So I'm 29 but I have a lot to learn so I can keep doing my best to be cautious and confident at the same time when I see Tyrel in public. I 'm more used to male playtime than I am with teen females or adult romance even though I'll 30 in April. 